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Hmmm...
I haven't blogged in dogs years! It's almost been a year...and I'm only on here because someone sent me a link to a friend's blog that despite his best intentions only had ONE post! I'd link to it but seriously even that one post was only 2 lines long decrying the sad state of affairs they found when they moved to Kwale for research work...


I'm now going to talk about the current state of affairs I find myself in- I ended up SOARING like that eagle for a few months. Then came crashing back down to earth like HOW ON EARTH WILL I SURVIVE WITH NO COINS?! 



I was HORRIFIED! DISTURBED! PERTURBED! to say the least. Yes, u must understand... I don't know how to be that guy with no coin.


I was tempted to tell my man...
 Severely tempted :D 


But I'm not that kinda girl. I went down on my bended KNEE and PRAYED to the ALMIGHTY! (doesn't that sound like a rap of sorts? or rhyme... I'll settle for rhyme). And shortly thereafter (aka the very same nite coz I had a serious heart-to-heart with the big guy) I got a job. Like the very next day I went for an interview and got the job.


It might not be what I expected but God gives u what u ask for. I was more worried about not having any money and He was more interested in giving me what He knows is best for me.


Us fickle humans...





It's really strange what comes up when u type in fickle humans to the images section of google...


Brad Pitt can GERRIT! ALL OF IT! 



He came up in the pictures (something about women being fickle. I heard he's chafu tho. He can still gerrit tho. ALL OF IT! Bahaha)


So that's it for now my dears! Arriverderci


Thanks for visiting and for all your patience!

Secrets

“Three may keep a secret, if two of them are dead.”


Was just thinking about what happens when you tell someone something you know you shouldn't. Then you say "Don't TELL anyone". Even though you KNOW they are now just ITCHING with it. Positively about to break out into hives. 

                                                                   “Of course I can keep secrets. It's the people I tell them to that can't keep them.”
On the topic of letting things go *ponders*... you really shouldn't get upset when you tell someone something you shouldn't that has been told to you by someone who really shouldn't have told you either in the first place. You get me? Like if I tell A that B told me 1,2,3 then I shouldn't get upset if A tells C or goes straight back to B and shares that information... because I had no right to share in the first place did I? This is all hypothetical people. I'm as trustworthy as a church mouse.  

"The Secret is the law of attraction (LOA)". Remember the book? I was so disappointed when I read that. I mean, that's IT!? You almost made me pay for a book to tell me THAT!? *smacks forehead*


Just seen the resident coke head... I mean, errr, I was watching errrm something on coke heads...
OH YES! Secrets... The Secret Powers of Time by RSA Animate is the absolute BEST link I've found so far when I you tubed 'secret'. I've watched it before so enjoy... it's a tad profound.


I also ended up watching Aries Spears comedies & therein draws to a close my working day. I have cheetos to eat as I watch and well... as for your secrets...


*puts hands infront of self and takes off screaming*


Keep your bloody secrets!

Change

We all have big changes in our lives that are more or less a second chance ~ Harrison Ford in some movie or the other. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." - St. Francis of Assisi (personal favorite)

Here's a picture...




It's bigger than I thought it would be. Lol. At least this proves my new improved blogger works. Thank GOD! I was tired of being a blog slut moving from one to the next...


I gave in my notice today. Not that I really had an option in the matter but I feel more empowered to say that I did it. Which means I have 10 more days to work and then ... *attempts to* soars! Like an eagle.

<- that's supposed to be an eagle soaring. I'm sure you get the point.


HOLIDAY COMING UP!!!!




Home time so we can continue this post. 
Believe me, it was going somewhere...

my new look blog...

YEAAAAH! New look blog with fancy things going on in the compose section! I hope this means pics won't give me grief like it did with the old format :-/ Baaaah!

Anyway, the washing machines symbolize my recycling old posts I have (or had depending on how u look at it). I have a tendency of typing stuff on my phone then saving & eventually emailing it to myself so it rarely makes it to the blog on time. I'm not too sure what's going on in the last washing machine tho... Close inspection tho reveals I have an overly imaginative brain.

Thanks for bearing with me blog.

Kisses!

L

Emotions & Bubbles

I have the BEST boyfriend ever :-) He bought me 'Dance with Dragons', the book I blogged about here. It's HUGE! Can't wait to get home & keep reading it. *drool*

On that note:

I realized that I really internalize my emotions. I'd prefer to read a book than discuss what's really going on in my life... I think my boyfriend gets the brunt of it (when they surface)...

In the last four days I've had four of my friends come up to me and share really...traumatizing? Distressing I guess stories that revolve around different facets of their lives. And each time I'm bereft. I used to take on peoples burdens but now not so much. I'm too used to getting into it, like it's my personal life story but I'm no longer that guy. Now I watch detached & listen, hug & wonder if it's pertinent to throw in my two cents. Not everyone wants ur advice I've learnt.

So I decided to write this... (I don't think I finished tho to be honest. It's all about bubbles)

I don't know if we're immune to pain or if people are simply undergoing way too much in their lives to get caught up in others. Somewhere along the way we've lost our sense of community and connectivity.

I live in a bubble. Whether it's a hermetically sealed hypoallergenic one or not- I still live in one. Case in point- *ducks rotten tomatoes* I have no idea where the gas fire that occurred yesterday was. I know it's around Nairobi but I've never heard of the place before let alone knew about the article that was written about how dangerous it was for ordinary Kenyans to live there.
I know I'm affected by the fire because these are my fellow Kenyans but... remember my bubble? I'm waiting for a sign from God to realize how it has impacted me besides writing this blog.
I didn't lose any family members during post election violence in '07 and early '08 which I'm eternally grateful for but this again makes me believe even more strongly in my littu bubble.
I live and work within 15mins drive, shop, club etc within the same 15mins. The furthest I might have to go is church on Sunday which pushes it to about 1/2 an hour if there's no traffic.
I never travel to unsavory parts of Nairobi and very rarely go to town. I'm falling into the category of spoilt princess when my salary doesn't justify my living... If I was politely excused from my home today I'd find myself living closer to these so called unsavory places where I can get the mama mboga to chop my spinach for me and I can live within crawling distance of a matatu to take me to town/home based on how intoxicated I am. I wonder if I'd still retain the same friends *pause*

Someone asked @alykhansatchu 'what's the mood like in Nairobi after the tragic fire (ad-libbed kiasi)' and I automatically thot, meh... I think we're ok. I doubt if it's because of my sole circumstances that make me believe this but I've witnessed Kenyans shrug off disasters like a chick tosses back her hair after the wind blows it in her face.

I wrote that on the 12^th when the fire happened. Now, it’s almost like it never happened. OR maybe I just live in a bubble.

R/ships & trust

Be careful what you type, it might come back to bite you in the ras...

I read something interesting possibly last nite/early this morning while taking a break from my tossing & turning: "Live in such a way that you wouldn't be afraid to sell your parrot to the village gossip". Me?! Why would I want to do that? Then I really thought about it...

I'm a very private person. When my friend suggested getting my post on Africa out into the interwebs I froze.

"AAAAAH!" *bloodcurdling scream*

I don't want people to read my work & judge me. Or do I? Remember the post about how I'd like to write under a pseudonym? LOL! I have problems. Then I read something else about leaving ur cell phone with ur S/O for a whole day. Now usually that wouldn't be a problem but... am I going anal with age? As the years go by I become more entrenched in my ways and more possessive of what I consider to be mine. And no this isn't an excuse. I'm pretty sure I have nothing to hide. If u find something then... why were u looking in the first place (please note I'm not some kind of saint that adheres to this same rule)...

I'm really trying to get over the younger sibling 'borrowing' syndrome (we're about the same size top wise and shoe wise). I go insane trying to find something because I know exactly where I left it but it's GONE. Just like THAT! *snaps fingers* Then later I see her hiding it so that she can launder it and casually leave it where it was. That must be some kind of psychological mind f*ck... We're now trying to deal with the whole 'asking' process. When she asks I'm so tempted to say no but I'm growing out of it...

God provides. lol.

It's MINE THO!!! Am I the only person with possession issues?

*strolls away whistling*

#NP Feel it in my bones - Dj Tiesto