Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Eat Pray...

Eat Pray Love

The title of the book I’m currently reading.

Kinda like the Zahir in how it relates to me… in how it flows and speaks to my soul. Listening to Makeda (almost as per usual). Les Nubians. This song reminds me of *him* who gave it to me yet, again of him who also reminds me of *closer* Goapele? I feel myself drifting away in these emotions again though I fought them off last week. I should listen to myself more often. Told myself no more but ended up making the same mistake blunder I did last week. Thinking of ‘us’. Who are we but a figment of my imagination?

Something(s) I read caught my eye, for instance- and particularly this bit- I am exhausted by the cumulative consequences of a lifetime of hasty choices and chaotic passions. So maybe in the grand scheme of things, I should pursue that life, no, current state of celibacy that will enable my heart to heal/mend.

I am the hopeless romantic who pretends to be the greatest cynic around. D’s words come to mind… they always do when I’ve gotten over being upset with her (which tends to be when she calls me out on certain ish and damn the woman for knowing me so well)... But she was hugging me *close* on Friday and telling me never to sell myself short OR cheap. I have been. All in the name of living whatever dream it was concocted to beat the loneliness I must unerringly be feeling yet ignoring. I want to embrace it, learn to love myself again. I was well on the right path until I fell into this temptingly inviting quagmire of liberated self indulgence.

No Jive- De Phazz. I really needed to google this track. I LOVE IT (thanks Monsieur E).

Dig it like its written for my heart & soul… at some point, it sounded like, I don’t want no child… ha, funny.

It’s very addictive. Made me think of trip hop, jazz and salsa and yes, the description bears that mix. Think ~Lynx~ would love it. Washy does =) my new online lover! Don't watch the video first... just listen to it. Videos can turn you off music... and this one is really, what's the word, out there?! Special? lol

Its been a long, cold and dreary July. Let's hope August looks up.

(I get the feeling this post comes off as very spiritual... )

Taaa!

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